So I made a huge decision last night. NO MORE! sub me. Well obviously sub/spankee me is there…but she is going to be sent to the corner of my subconscious mind…I don’t like the scene. I don’t like the mentality of the scene. Meeting a decent Dom/spanker is basically few & far between. That is often tainted by the ‘Community of lovely, like minded’ mentality {Rolls my eyes}
Obviously that is a people trait…Community! Everyone knows your business. Lots of kissing up, lots of gossiping & back stabbing, lots of smarmy, fake nice-ness. When in reality, people are only interested in themselves. That sounds cynical? Everyone is ‘Lovely!’ ‘Wonderful!’ You should see the good in everyone? Yeah! Right! Grow up buttercup!
I don’t like groups of people. I like individuals…I don’t like someone treating me as part of a community, rather then ‘Myself!’…That sounds weird? Probably is, because people in general do need a community of people, but then again they also need attention, approval, to be the centre of attention…Mind you, that would be more extrovert peeps, then introverts…
All this ‘One set of actions & values fit all’…That is…Well not particully the right way to be…That sounds negative? Maybe to some, to me it is being realistic. If I was to meet someone; use their name, ask them questions about themselves, allow them to talk about themselves, smile, look interested in what they have to say. Do the odd giggle for whatever, use small talk, brat, whatever!
I’m wrong? As I said. I like individuals. I like conversation. I prefer the so called black sheep. The people communities types often judge, I prefer those people to the conforming community of ‘Lovely, like minded’ peeps…A lot of the time, the lovely peeps, well they’re judging, bitching, slagging you off behind your back…
I try to see things from another persons point of view…Their individual point of view, not their ‘Fitting in’ conforming point of view…Its like one person who was a c*** to me. I just blocked her, so she can’t see me {I hope!} & I can’t see her {Phew!} They think she’s lovely, fun-fun-FUN! I feel she is a manipulative, vindictive, jealous, insecure person, with mental health issues. She has not had a particully good life, so I can understand her actions to a certain extent…but…Every other person in the community takes on her ‘Emotionally’ insecure ‘victim’ mentality as the truth…NO! PEOPLE! Think for yourself…
I would be her friend. I would find her personality quite endearing…but she hates me, through no thought of my own, other then being myself. Myself is ‘Reserved!’ Keeps myself to myself. Ignores, rises above, puts a smile on myself & enjoys what I’m doing…but I am very quiet, I am a introvert. I do get on better with individuals, I do get on better with men, because men in general, are more interested in the sub/spankee me, then how much loveliness I could lavish them with…Though, if a woman tells them not to go near someone…Dom or not, they do as they’re told, lol…
I want to leave all that behind. I’m bored with it going over & over in my mind. When all I want to do is get on with everyone, be nice, treat everyone with respect, but there they are, the lovelies, being judgy, bitchy, gossipy, not so lovely people, but it seems ‘like minded’…If you make an effort. You make friends. It is assumed my quietness is ‘Not effort!’…Me, I feel people should just be themselves & accept others for who they are. I accept those people for who they are, but I don’t accept the way they treat others, or me come to think of it, though I’m used to it, after years of being ‘Me!’ a introvert in a world where we have to be extrovert to fit in…
Yeah! I could act. I could just talk {If my mind did not go blank} I could listen to respond, rather then listen to understand. I could just talk bollocks. I have listened to group peeps. I’m sorry, but they just ‘Talk!’ talk-talk-talk ‘Laugh!’ but they’re not actually talking about anything interesting, its just words…Or gossip. Gossip keeps the words flowing, lol…
One of my good friends. He can talk for Ireland…but he talks about stuff, he does not just babble & giggle. It is conversation. Very fast conversation, but conversation non the less. He gets on with everyone…He has literally been told not to talk to a certain person…I assumed it was me, but I could not be arsed to press him for more info {Yawns!} Of course he likes me, so he spoke to me anyway…
Another good friend. He can talk for England, lol…but he talks. He has a conversation. He is a really friendly guy, just like my Irish friend. I get on really well with this friend. Even though he is the scenes most hated & black listed…{Grins} I’m grinning, but his quite hurt by it. He is black listed through gossip & a Ex from over a decade ago. See vindictive. There is no need for it. Why the need to destroy people, to destroy reputations, just because they had a relationship which broke up…Jeeze!
I have this as well & over a decade ago…Strange creatures that these clique people are…It sounds personal? Probably is, but this is the mentality I am talking about…Ohh! Ranting! Right!…Its strange how people giving a negative opinion on some negativity they disagree with, is ‘Ranting!’…{Shrugs!}
Oh! Yeah! That ‘Talk for England’ friend. He does have a tendency to give as good as he gets, but MORE! He points out their flaws, they as a ‘Community’ gang up on him, lol…
I am going to stop now…
I am starting the steps towards ‘Absolutely!’ no more scene…I want to focus more on my other, more interesting interests. Like gardening, my indoor garden, mosaic, tarot reading, visualisation, psychology, blogging, my own peace of mind, my family, etc.
Sophisticated derriere 