Life Changes Often Involve Lots Of Changing Your Mind…

One thing when planning life changes, is to be forgiving of yourself. Instead of thinking I failed at that, how embarrassing, I went on & on about it only to fail...No! life changes, life evolves, ideas evolve, learning what works, taking what works, then discarding the rest... I have had a few major tweaks & … Continue reading Life Changes Often Involve Lots Of Changing Your Mind…

ONE! Does not need the hassle from douchebags…

I woke up feeling slightly depressed today, its like something is about to happen, which I know I won't like. I don't think my wilted sunflowers helped, so I gave them a good soak, its lovely now the sun is here, but soooo! much watering plants 'Ugh!' I got the 'Well you've failed on yet … Continue reading ONE! Does not need the hassle from douchebags…

Day Thirty – Darn Cake!

I ate cake 'Ugh!' at least the cream was low carb. Its weird. It is one tinsy bit of cake, but I feel like a HUGE! failure. I am working on this over reaction to a mere piece of cake on one day out of a life time of days. I will get my eating … Continue reading Day Thirty – Darn Cake!

Day Twenty Seven – More Of My Rambling Subbie Thoughts…

Yesterday was a 'Good enough!' diet day. No picking all day, no binging after my red wine. So a good enough diet day. I was just doing some squats whilst my coffee was expressing it self... From today it is going to be focusing all my mind energy 'motivation' on getting my garden finished. Which … Continue reading Day Twenty Seven – More Of My Rambling Subbie Thoughts…

Day Twenty Six – This Time Next Year – Taking The More Leisurely Route To My Ideal Size…

I am going to say 'A successful day, on my weight loss journey'...Though my diet mentality, from years of dieting, leaves me feeling like it was a lazy day. I never reached my 5k step target & I ate after 23pm & just before 13pm, but... I am still fasting for at least 12 hours... … Continue reading Day Twenty Six – This Time Next Year – Taking The More Leisurely Route To My Ideal Size…

Day Twenty Four – Here We Go Again…

Yesterday was a pretty mediocre day {Sighs} I ate after 23pm {GASP!} I never reached my 5k steps, but I done gardening; weeding & planting up seedlings. So yeah I done the equivalent in exercise, if not more, it takes some effort to weed whilst bending & squatting. I had a splitting head ache & … Continue reading Day Twenty Four – Here We Go Again…

Some Might Judge Me – Some Might Assume I Am A Certain Type Of Person…

Ohh! Myyy! Fecking! Gosh!...I just wrote my new Fetlife account profile...'Yaaakes!'...I am going to meet a Dom & I am going to get past my body image issues... Do you know, I still feel crap from the numbers on my scales this morning. Those feelings were a real eye opener to me... So I read … Continue reading Some Might Judge Me – Some Might Assume I Am A Certain Type Of Person…

Crazy Woman On A Diet –

So what have I learned about 'weight loss journey' self today...Hmmm? Emotional 'change the way I feel' eating, is a sneaky, snidey ba**ard... I need to learn stronger coping strategies to deal with the obnoxious 'emotional' hunger... I resent all the **ckers in the scene I once had so much fun being in...'Grrrr!'... So called … Continue reading Crazy Woman On A Diet –

Day Sixteen – A Slight Detour To Get Back On The Straight Scenic Route…

Day fifteen was a mediocre diet day. I had pastry & cake with cream 'Gasps!'...I still ate less, but I was more lax...but...one mediocre day does not have to turn into a disastrous week. So today is a strict day. A make up for the lax day. A eat salad & fish day...NO! CAKE! Knowing … Continue reading Day Sixteen – A Slight Detour To Get Back On The Straight Scenic Route…