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ONE! Does not need the hassle from douchebags…

I woke up feeling slightly depressed today, its like something is about to happen, which I know I won’t like. I don’t think my wilted sunflowers helped, so I gave them a good soak, its lovely now the sun is here, but soooo! much watering plants ‘Ugh!’

I got the ‘Well you’ve failed on yet another diet’ vibes from my husband & I feel like slapping him around the head with the Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’ book, because I’m past explaining myself. He would say ‘I know how much it makes you depressed’. Yes being fat makes me feel ‘Ugh!’…but it is more my lack of energy which makes me feel down…

My INFJ brain is playing up. Probably one of my weaknesses. Where I start to pick up on someone taking the pee, being passive aggressive sarky, but then I’m left thinking ‘is it me?’ am I over reacting. I think he is just trying to be funny, but to me its not really funny, its sarcastic, I don’t particularly warm to sarcastic people, I find them quite rude & antagonistic. Face to face I just laugh, but Inside I’m left thinking ‘Rude!’

This site I’m co building. I noticed there was green on some, a few amber, too many red to feel comfortable, apparently it is to do with the readability,  analysis, which is basically traffic lights. I have been trying to tweak all the red & amber posts, to turn them green. I really wanted to keep the site down until all these things were ironed out…

…but…’Grrrr!!!’…I won’t moan. It makes me sound like a bitch, lol…

I am having great fun in Fetlife. I am trying to comment in the different groups I have joined, I am also trying to keep up with responding to messages. Hmmm! The sarcasm, the use of ‘I’ {Rolls my eyes} We’re exchanging messages, now emails to get to know each other, so he wrote in this weird confusing way, which made me wonder if he was drunk…& he kept putting {showing off} after every few weird sentences. I was ‘Eh?’ Please, mate! Stop!

Yeesss! There is a lot of ‘I’ I am not going to write in the whateverperson…One, one? what is that about, I read it like I was slurring my words. Why the need for total perfection, that you start to be a sarcastic old git, patronising me instead of talking to me. As new sub me, new improved SOD the tosser’s…I am taking those people out of my life straight away, I don’t need that kind of hassle in my life, there are far more important things to worry about…

Not that I worry about much these days. I learned not to worry ‘One learned not to worry’ {Tw*t!} The thing is. That is some minor & mundane, not worth thinking about, but I don’t want to waste my time with someone I know will eventually really start to irritate…

Ohh! Yes!…I also blocked someone on my Fetlife account. I dare say the first of many to come. Sorry ‘One dare says’…Ohhh! FECK OFF!!! This man was the typical Domly Dom ‘cliche’ Me Master, you mere female slave. I know I made a mistake loving one of his pictures he had a shared, it was just a punny meme…

Basically the bloke is a douchebag. He wanted to discuss my desires, but it was more of a demand then a opening for conversation. I was very polite, I gave him the benefit of the doubt, then he started frantically waving red flags at me. I definitely don’t need his type in my life ever again. One narcissistic, emotional abuser is quite enough thank you very much…

My new sub approach…Never try to explain to a patronising, passive aggressive A hole, especially when being polite, tactful, diplomatic, friendly & still the douchebag gets all passive aggressive anal…Just saying…

 

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Day Twenty Six – This Time Next Year – Taking The More Leisurely Route To My Ideal Size…

I am going to say ‘A successful day, on my weight loss journey’…Though my diet mentality, from years of dieting, leaves me feeling like it was a lazy day. I never reached my 5k step target & I ate after 23pm & just before 13pm, but…

  1. I am still fasting for at least 12 hours…
  2. I am still eating a healthy diet…
  3. I am not picking on sweet junk all day…
  4. I have treat food, but not all day snacking…
  5. I am not drinking sugary fizzy drinks, or other sugary drinks…
  6. I am resting due to so called flare up’s, but keep getting up, moving around & doing the odd squat, side leg raise, etc…
  7. I am not eating takeaways…
  8. I am more pain free, due to eating a more healthy diet…

So my mind saying ‘Here we go again’ another big fat failure…Noooo! So I’m not so rigid, not soooo! strict. This is a life style change, to maintain my ideal weight/size in advance. There is no failure. There is just that initial ‘ENPHUSIASM!’ sizzling out. The actual life style change, for life is settling in…

I feel I need the odd ‘enthusiastic’ strict, rigid ‘Diet!’ mode, to keep myself from going backwards & forwards on my weight loss journey. There is no BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! Strict! – Rigid! – Determined! – Focused! – Motivated! – Inspired! all the way to X target weight. It is not a straight, level ground sprint to the finish line…

Noooo! My ‘get healthy’ weight loss journey has many meandering paths, some clear & easy going, others a up hill rocky climb, where a machete is needed to hack my way through the under growth, or should I say over growth. Then it leads to the edge of a steep cliff & I’m hanging on for dear life…

I know, what the fanny fart am I on about…

There is no…Start – FAIL! -Stop – Months not being able to start, feeling like a failure – Finally muster up all the ‘New improved’ THIS! IS THE ONE! dieting enthusiasm – Go Go Go Keep Going. fizzle fizzle… ugh! FAIL!

As I said. There is none of that…There is no Start – Stop – Start – Stop…I started 24 years ago, the dieting just set me up to be a fat storing super machine. Now I am giving up dieting. I am eating a more healthy balanced diet. I am eating sweet food in moderation. I am doing as much exercise as I can…

This time next year. I will be slimmer, healthier, have a whole new out look on life, through dropping the habits which kept me fat & caused me to get fatter. If I’m not on a strict, rigid diet regime, I don’t have to stuff my face with all the supposed fattening, forbidden foods…

This time next year, I will be at least 26 lbs slimmer…The healthier I feel, the more pain free I will be, so I will automatically move more. I could be 52 lbs slimmer. Time flies by. Well our perspective of time zooms!!! by…When I look back I will see nothing less then constant, persistent results, be it tiny, or HUGE! Probably somewhere between tiny & big…

Today we are going out to buy some bark for the garden. I am going to be clearing the rubbish I saved to upcycle. Taking up the rotten decking. Attacking the Knott weed. All my plants are going in pots, then the dogs can use the whole garden…

Gawd! I wish that screaming kid, would STOP! the screeching…Ugh! Teach your child that no one wants to hear him/her SCREAM! I taught my kids not to be aggravating to those around them, yet I have to deal with the off spring of people who just allow their child to SCREAM! CONSTANTLY!

My little granddaughter is just learning to SCREAM! We put our hand over our mouth …She stops screaming & looks wide eyed at us…We then show her nicer, quieter noises. She’s only 9 months old, so she does not understand ‘Stop screaming, it is too loud’…

I got a video of her today, sitting in the middle of her mummy & daddy, all three of them dancing, a big grin on her face…So adorable. My daughter was like ‘Look at my fat cheeks, look at my face’…I said ‘would you say that about Phoebe, she looks like you’…She {My daughter} cuddled her & said ‘No she’s beautiful’…As I pointed out ‘I think she is beautiful’…apparently I am biased, because I’m her Mum…

I feel bad that I may of put some of this low self esteem, when it comes to looks, on my daughters. Not that I purposely say these things, but obviously they see me put myself down. I like that my daughters are not conceited, but I wish they could see themselves as I see them ‘Gorgeous in everyway’…

It does make me think more about body image & appreciating what I have got…Mind you, I put my phone/camera on selffie mode, my granddaughter loves seeing herself, it makes her laugh. I accidently turned it on myself. My instant reaction was ‘Ugh! That was scary, then I laughed at my finding myself scary to look at…How bad is that & in front of my daughters & granddaughter. I need to change my reaction to seeing myself….

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Day Twenty One – End Of Week Three – Self Hypnosis – Four Golden Rules ‘I can make you thin’…

“Yaaay!” A successful diet day twenty. It is the dreaded week three weigh day tomorrow. As usual I am dreading it. Though I have been eating a lot less, a lot healthier & doing more exercise. I will weigh & measure myself tomorrow, with out putting any high expectations on myself…

Stay the same ‘happy I never gained’…Lose 0.25 lb ‘happy I am going in the right direction’. Any loss will be fantastically, fabulously, amazing. There will be NO! disappointment, noooo! feeling disheartened. NO! I know I am doing the right thing for my health & fitness. I trust my body to eventually balance itself & catch up. I am basically maintaining my ideal weight/size in advance…

Mum, 37, sheds five stone thanks to hypnosis app: ‘I never dreamed it would be so easy’

Really? I need to read this article…

Personally I think it come down to the power of her own mind. She really wanted to drop the weight & she believed the hypnosis was helping her. It probably took away the self doubt, which can lead to self sabotage…

“I would recommend Easy Loss to anyone – but I think you need to really want to do it. If you have that goal and really want it to work, then it will…”

I do listen to self hypnosis. I also follow the Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’ 4 golden rules. I eat when I am hungry, but use intermittent fasting as a safety net. By the time 13pm is here, I am truly hungry, but not famished…I am finding that I no longer feel the need to eat after 20pm. Eventually I will change my intermittent fasting times to 18:6…At the moment I am 14:10, but I don’t always want to eat after 20pm…

I feel in control of my eating. I am taking full responsibility for what goes in my mouth. I do not need to stuff my face all day long, into the early hours. Last night {Well this morning} I went to bed at 4am, feeling ‘Ugh!’…I had a really dry throat, even though I drank a glass of water, my stomach hurt & I felt nauseous…but I think it was more being over tired then actual hunger. Just emotional ‘Change the way I feel’ hunger. I did not give into it, I went to bed & eventually fell asleep {Groans!} I need to sort my sleeping out, but I have had this since I was born, all through my childhood, basically forever…

The second golden ‘I can make you thin’ rule, is to eat what you want to eat, not what you think you should eat. In other words listen to your body, when you listen to your body & trust it will make healthy choices. It is quite liberating. Yesterday I went to buy my daily sugar treat, but I didn’t fancy it, I fancied soup with bread. Thai carrot soup. It was scrumptious…& healthier. The second golden rule was a sticking point for me in the past. After all ‘Of course I want sweets, cake, chocolate, biscuits, takeaway, etc…’ Not anymore…

I want to be healthy, slim, fit, feel more attractive; a lot more then I want to eat sugar junk all day & have take away instead of a healthy home cooked meal from scratch..I realised how crappy the takeaway food was anyway. You cant beat home made chips, using fry light. I don’t see how people can think the fried cardboard & salty, greasy tasteless food, which cost LOTS! of money can be better. Mind you gourmet burgers…Yum! That reminds me. Minted lamb burgers. I can make my own…

Maaaybe it was the self hypnosis which changed my mind ‘For the better’ about food. Its like someone flipped a switch inside me & I saw the light, in the light was lots of healthy, tasty, satisfying food. Constantly eating sugar, so my blood sugar level spiked high, then dropped low, was keeping me fat. My body needed to produce insulin all the time, to deal with the sugar. Of course it stored the sugar as fat…

The third rule, eating slowly & consciously. I know of course you’ll conscious…but are you? When you are mindlessly speed eating, whilst watching tele. I have slowed my eating right down. I do chew my food right down before swallowing…but…The tele is on in the evening. I still concentrate on my food though. Especially when I can savour every mouthful & not just taste greasy, salty nothingness, which is processed food. It opens your taste buds as well as your mind…

The fourth rule. Which is pretty much ‘Duh! Common sense’…Has not always been ‘common sense’…especially with the mindless eating…Rule # 4 ‘STOP!’ eating when you feel full. Satisfied full. Not bloated. stuffed, feel nauseous full. Just that first twinge of fullness. I can leave food on my plate. My parents aren’t there to lecture me & make me stay at the table until I have cleared the plate…I have never forced my kids to clear their plate, or to eat food they don’t like…I no longer have a bloated feeling after eating. When I look down, now I see my boobs, not my stomach protruding like I am 9 months pregnant with tripplets…

Oops! Its 14 minutes into my eating time. I thought I felt hungry. Actual hunger. Hunger to nourish my body. No mindless stuffing. I am not a dustbin. I don’t need a constant supply of sugar to get me through the day…

Lunch time…

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Day Fifteen – Week Three – Dropped 4 inches Over All – Lost 0.5 lb…

Yeesss! Another successful diet day. Another successful diet week ‘Woooo!!!’…I was going to say that my week two weigh day has been a disappointing weigh day, because I lost ‘Only!’ 0.5 lb…but…I lost over all 4 inches, which is 1″ more then week one. My measurements are more important & I know how stubborn my body can be. There is also other factors, like water…

0.5 lb is a loss. It is going in the right direction. The most important thing to me is inch loss & so far in 2 weeks I have dropped 7 inches over all. I measure my bust-ribs {under bust} waist-hips-bottom-thighs-knees-upper arm…

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This week I am going to start gardening like a crazy woman…I want to put all my plants in pots & cement over the ground where I struggle to keep on top of the weeds. My garden is too small for shrubs & too big for pots. When I move, I want either a huge garden, or a court yard garden. I inherited a garden which had been neglected for years. 5 years on, I’m still battling with the same weeds…

So! Inch loss! I am concentrating on inch loss, not weight loss. Which means carry on the way I’m eating. Yesterday I did not have any food all evening & went to bed earlier. So today, when I start eating at 13pm, I would have fasted for 18 hours, because I stopped eating around 19pm last night…

I am going to start gardening 10 minutes at a time. I want to move all my pots closer together. I have got lots of empty pots to fill…Lots of seedlings to plant & hanging baskets to hang. I am really slow this year…

Measurements

Bust – 44″ {0.5″}

Ribs – 39.25″ {0.5″}

Waist – 42″ {1″}

Hips – 45″ {1″}

Bottom – 44″ {0.5″}

Thighs – 26.25″

Arms – 13″ {0.5″}

Knees – 16.25″

I feel inspired to start focusing more on exercise & getting fitter, but I am not going to go back to eating lots of sugary junk food & processed food. I am going to carry on intermittent fasting 13pm to 23pm {Fasting more when I can} & eating healthy, no dieting…Inch loss is definitely more important then weight loss…

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First I need coffee, then gardening…if I was to do what Paul McKenna says in his book ‘I can make you thin’ I would forget the scales & concentrate on the 4 golden rules & getting active. I am going to carry on weighing myself & measuring myself weekly though. Some weeks I might lose lb’s & no inches…

I am going to exercise to build muscle…5 lbs of muscle burns 250-calories VS 5 lbs of fat burning a mere 20 calories. It is a no brainer. I am not going to start doing exercise I can not realistically keep up, but I am going to be focusing on getting more active & doing more strength training. Starting by moving pots around in my garden…

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Physical Hunger VS Emotional Hunger…

via Daily Prompt: Precipice

“Precipice” That sounds like a good word…What does it mean? I’ll go & google it, see if I can fit it into my weight loss journey…

Hmmm! Only virtual steep mountains on my virtual weight loss journey, but a hazardous situation? Yes…Sweets, cakes, biscuits, chocolate, can’s of ginger beer in the fridge, the high sugar variety, my favourite drink of all time…Hazardous to my health {sighs}

Another hazard to my health, a ‘precipice’…Forgetting the reason’s why I so desperately want to stick to my healthy eating, weight loss journey. Strange I know. How can you forget. It is easy to stop focusing & move my focus onto something else…

Its like when I tell myself ‘I want to eat something sweet’…I don’t really, I just think I do. It is that emotional eating ‘Change the way I feel’ sudden, urgent PULL! to eat. Then I don’t feel satisfied, so I eat some more, by then I am thinking ‘I might as well eat what I want, that diet failed, as per usual’…They are hazardous thoughts & feeling’s…

First brain. No food is forbidden, restricted, off limits. I can eat what ever I want to eat…’When I feel hungry’…Psychically hungry, hunger that is gradual, not sudden, hunger which is……

What is physical hunger?

Physical hunger, also known as stomach hunger, is a complex interaction between the digestive system, endocrine system, and the brain. Physical hunger signs begin when the body needs refuelling and manifests as stomach rumbling or growling. When we eat, we feel better because our need for hunger is being met.

Sometimes it does not hurt for our body to feel hunger, so we learn what hunger feels like & learn to trust that we can cope with hunger, it is not going to last for ages, because we can feed our body…A lot of the time we are actually thirsty, not hungry, our body needs hydrating not fuelling with food…

Physical hunger doesn’t make you crave for specific comfort foods. Emotional hunger unlike physical hunger makes you ache for your favourite junk foods like pizza, cheesecake, cookies etc.  In a state where you are hungry physically you can consume any sort of food especially healthy foods!

So we just need to find ways to control our emotional hunger & trust our psychical hunger to allow our body to make healthy food choices. Mind you, when I eat 13pm to 23pm I am sort of forcing my meal times. Its like I’m hungry coming up to 13pm, but I make myself wait…I think about food when I get up & look at the clock, but I tell myself ‘No!’…I don’t feel hungry, I feel thirsty. I find it easy to wait until 13pm, I even wait longer, until I feel hungry…

Emotional hunger generally leads to binging. When struck by emotional hunger, individuals tend go overboard with their consumption of food and can down any junk food present in sight. When it comes to emotional hunger your brain doesn’t really register whether or not you are full and hence individuals keep eating beyond the point satiety without even knowing it. On the other hand when eating because of physical hunger, individuals are usually aware about how much they need to eat and feel satiated when their stomach is full.

One of my dieting downfalls…I really do need to concentrate on following the Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’ 4 golden rules…

When I have my twinges to eat, when I should not be eating. Like late at night, when I can’t sleep. It is ’emotional hunger’…Hence getting through it by telling myself ‘no’ & reminding myself why I am not going to eat. The hunger subsides after a drink, so obviously I was not hungry, I was thirsty & I got in the habit of just eating for the sake of it…

Emotional hunger surfaces from the brain. Instead of your belling growling and aching for food, emotional hunger comes from the head where you are only focused on certain kind of taste and textures and it usually points towards some kind of junk food.

So forget following a specific food plan; focus on dealing with the emotional eating. My diet is fantastic when I am eating to satiate my hunger…I did get to where I did not want to force myself out of my comfort zone of saying no to myself…

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Over All – I Dropped 3 Inches – A Rambling Sub Me Post…

“Yeesss!”…I just done my week one measurements…Over all I lost 3 inches “Wooo!”…1” off my waist/tummy, which is ‘fantastically, amazingly, fabulous!’. It gives me the incentive to keep on exercising & eating healthy…

One thing which Paul McKenna say’s, which was a real eye opener. Slim people watching. Not as in ogling slim people, no! Watching how they eat. They eat slower {Mostly} They eat when they are hungry. They eat what they want to eat, then stop eating when they are satisfied…Also…They don’t have food on their mind all the time…

My husband is skinny, he is always on the go, rushing around like a blue arsed fly. He eats when he is hungry. Though I am trying to feed him a healthy diet {Rolls my eyes} He also stops eating when he is stressed, where as I eat more. If I could stop eating through stress, I would stress the hell out of myself, but then there is cortisol, which is released when you are stressed. I will stick to being my laid back self, but use visualisation to hold back the urge to so called comfort eat. Emotional eating as Paul McKenna calls it…

As I have said before. I used to be an hour glass shape, which is {Bust & Hips more or less the same measurement, waist 10 inches smaller then your hips} now my stomach is near the same as my bust. I look more like a rectangle now. I know that the healthy eating will eventually improve the inflammation. The cutting out ton’s of sugar will improve the insulin insensitivity, the cutting out processed food will reduce the sodium, so my water retention will balance itself…

I don’t want to carry on eating crap, feeling like crap, then ending up on medication, which causes crappy side effects, so I’m given more medication for the crappy side effects…When all I have to do is change my life style; eat a healthy balanced diet. I could go to the doctor’s about the water retention & get water tablets, but I won’t…not unless it gets really serious. What would be the point of taking water retention tablets & carry on eating processed junk…That is me personally, I am in no way critising people on medication. I am aware that a lot of unhealthy eating has got deeper issues. It takes a lot to change your lifestyle…

I am a big believer in the power of our own mind & that weight issues are mainly our mind & hormones…There are so many factors. It is not just eat less, move more. As I keep on saying…

Apparently we should use our imagination, instead of will power. Though of course you need the will power ‘self control’ to make the effort to use your imagination, but it is a lot easier then will power alone…When I am exercising I imagine myself as a slim me. I can’t see myself, so I can imagine I am already slim & fit…I also count 1-2-3-4 over & over & feel the pain, but ride the pain {I have got a high pain tolerance, I am a pain slut as a sub too, lol, strange I know} I imagine slim me…

Ummm! I just thought. When I was sub me, playing every other week, going to parties every other month, I felt sexy, I felt confident in my sub self, then jealous bitches happened & a old bloke, with a pot belly & bushy eyebrows, who was into ‘Young slim girls’ happened. My confidence was knocked. I started to feel too old, past it, too fat, too much attitude……

Then I stopped making the effort to keep in touch with my Dom of 7+ years…we literally ground to a halt, which was another jolt to my confidence. Though all those bitch’s…………I won’t say it…

The last time I played. I did not enjoy it one bit. I felt fat, ugly, unattractive, unfeminine, passed it, like I was a joke…So one of my goals is to get back to where I was, before I allowed the jealous bints to get to me. One in particular…

I have decided that I will go back to being a sub. I will go back to parties, but…I am going to lose all my excess fat first. I am visualising what I will be wearing, how I will look, how I will feel. My EX Dom’s reaction…Though make some fecking effort, mate…Jeeze!…Yeah! I know where you are. You know where I am. It works both ways. How I see it. If you really, deep down wanted to play with me, I would not be left to do all the running. 7 + years of my sub life wasted…Okay maybe I should not look at it that way…

Actually my main weight gain was after I stopped playing & going to parties…

Oops! I went off on a ramble then & I don’t mean the fat burning kind…

Nuff said for now…I am 30 minutes past my 13pm eating time. Which is quite positive, it means I can wait for food; eat when I am hungry…

I’ll shut up now…

 

 

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Day Seven –

I am so amazing. I got through a successful day 6, when I had the twinges to eat. I just kept thinking ‘I don’t want to be fat anymore, I don’t want to be unhealthy anymore, I want to reach my target weight, I want to be slim’…

Yesterday’s dinner was cheese {30g red leister, healthy A choice} & tomatoe omelette, with homemade chips. I had syn counted salad cream. It was scrummy. I can eat my usual dinners, making the odd adjustment, like using Fry light extra virgin olive oil, instead of the actual olive oil. Though olive oil is healthy…Hmmm! Should I go back to using olive oil. Mind you not all cheaper versions are that different to veg oil, or sunflower oil…

The only difference to my diet is cutting the sugar intake through sweets, cakes, biscuits, chocolate by…MASSES!!! My twinges to just give up & eat sugary junk food ‘after my 10 hour eating curfew’ is to snack…but…No more snack cupboard, I’d have to sneak upstairs to the kids rooms to steal from their stash. Which would be very undignified, lol…

The thing is, the pleasure from eating that sugary snack, lasts a few minutes at most. then I’m left with the feeling of being a failure. I know 1 bad day does not have to ruin a diet…but if I have the mentality that I can eat the unhealthy snacks, then carry on dieting, I will just go back to my old eating habits. I had milk chocolate Mikado biscuits 16 = 8 syn’s…

I have almost done a whole week on my weight loss journey. It is my one week weigh day tomorrow. I have that slight feeling of dread. What if I lost weight at the beginning, then gained it all back {According to my Wii fit board, I have} I am going to see it as an adjustment time. After all my body will not be reacting the same way as people who eat ton’s of food, then go on a diet. Because technically my only issue was snacking, but after watching secret eaters…OMFG! Those people EAT! I don’t eat that much, I was eating too much, obviously, but I was not getting through the amount of food those secret eaters were tucking away, apparently with out realising ‘Eh?’…

My husband says ‘You don’t eat that much, I don’t understand why you are overweight’…I used to eat too many snacks, but not a whole packet of biscuits, or a 6 pack of crisps, or pints of cider 3 times in an evening, or a whole cake to myself in one setting. I would have 4 chocolate digestives to dunk in my coffee, or a small twirl, or 2 small fun size bags of maltasers…Too many calories, too much fat, too many carbs…

Instead of beating myself up, I am going to look at it honestly. I am not a secret eater {Like the peeps on the tv programme} I’m very aware of what I am putting in my mouth. I personally don’t understand how someone can be so unaware, until they’re filmed doing it, then shown the evidence & they’re genuinely shocked…A real eye opener for me. As in I don’t eat like that…

I have got to prepare myself for my week one weigh in…I don’t want to feel disappointed, disheartened, wonder why I’m bothering. I want to feel in my heart, what I know in my head. I am eating less, I am eating a lot less sugar, I am exercising more. I am doing things which will maintain my weight loss for life. If I have to semi starve myself & knacker myself out, just to lose a measly few lb’s…NO WAY! Been there, done that, ***ked up my body, ended up with extra belly fat ‘Grrrr!!!’…

I will step on the scales. I will weigh the same {Please-Please-Pleeeaasssse!!! Don’t be more} I will feel the twinge of disappointment; disheartened, wonder why I’m bothering & carry on doing what I’m doing, until my body accepts that I’m eating less, there is less sugar, get over it…Suck it up buttercup…

“Persistence!”…”Patience!”…”Focus!”…”Keep myself motivated!”…”Be determined to succeed!”…So dieting is crap! Dieting does not work…Healthy eating works. Exercise works, but knackering yourself to drop a lb of fat at the end of it…WTF!

I  am just listening to self hypnosis again…I am going to read my Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’ book again & watch the YouTube clips…The thing with diets is the high expectations…but your body has other ideas, it rebels. It is more about hormones then ‘Eat less! Move more!’…

Leptin: Definition and Uses for Weight Loss

Your body produces many hormones that help you to eat the right amount of food and maintain a healthy weight.

Leptin is one of them. The hormone leptin is produced by your fat cells. When you have more fat, you produce more leptin.

After your fat cells produce leptin, it travels through the bloodstream to the .  The hypothalamus is the part of your brain that regulates hunger, thirst, mood and many other physical functions.

When leptin receptors in the hypothalamus interact with the hormone leptin, they send satiety signals to your brain that you have enough energy (fat) stored away. Energy stores are fat stores. Leptin is your body’s way of telling your brain that you can stop eating because you have all the stored energy (fat) that you need.

Leptin has other functions in your body, but most dieters and healthy eaters are most interested in leptin for weight loss. Researchers began studying leptin in the 1990s and continue to investigate ways that the hormone may help you to lose weight and keep the pounds off.

When you diet your leptin levels drop & your ghrelin levels rise…

Leptin Resistance and Obesity

One important area of investigation that scientist have studied is leptin resistance. Some researchers believe that leptin resistance is the reason people who are obese have a harder time eating less and losing weight.

Hmmm!

So how does leptin resistance work? Researchers aren’t exactly certain, but they know that leptin levels are higher in people who are obese.

Typical…

But despite the higher levels of the hormone, the satiety signals don’t seem to work the same way they work in leaner people. In short, the messages that tell your brain to stop eating and start burning more calories don’t work like they should even though your leptin levels are high.

Typical…

But the idea of leptin resistance is controversial because scientists don’t know exactly how the hormone interacts with other factors. There are many other appetite and hunger hormones that play a role in what you eat and how much you eat. Researchers also know that there are other things that affect your food intake, like food smells, food flavours, habits, reward systems and even cultural traditions. So they can’t say for certain that leptin resistance causes obesity.

See ‘It is not just about eating less & moving more’…

Then there is the hunger hormone…

How to Change Your Ghrelin Levels

Even though ghrelin may provide benefits in your body, many dieters are still frustrated by nagging hunger pangs and would like to reduce ghrelin to feel better. So is it possible to block ghrelin so that you eat less? Here’s what the evidence says about your ghrelin in your body:

Hmmm! Yes. Is it?

Nuff said for now…

 

 

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My personal ‘slimming world’ plan of action. My weight loss journey starts on Wednesday May 10th…

be06638004f8c9ba016d9ff552226048OMFG! I was just looking at other self hypnosis for weight loss, I came across hypnosis to obey. Nope! Not into obeying some stranger on the internet, who could screw my mind, but then if that is what rocks your boat, so be it…Ummm!

Personally I am into the power of my own mind, not obeying some complete stranger, who knows feck all about me. I am going to listen to my own body, make healthy choices, be more active, feel more motivated…

I believe the words we use/write, have an impact on us. If I write ‘I will try to lose weight, but I’ll probably fail, like all the other times’ I will likely fail, just because I set myself up to fail from the start. I am not going to fail. Failing is not an option, my life depends on it. I have no other choice then to change my eating habits…

Its like the emotional eating. If I tell myself that I can’t lose weight, because I am an emotional eater, well I’m likely to use that as an excuse. Yes it is real, but so is my powerful mind. I’m bored ‘Not hungry’…Its a habit. I don’t desperately need to eat biscuits with my coffee or tea. I do it out of habit. I literally open the cupboard & the fridge every time I go into the kitchen…

Though I have now emptied the sweet junk cupboard. The sweet junk is upstairs in the kids bedrooms. They have their stash. Which they hardly eat. Because they was brought up allowed to eat sweet junk food, so its not a big thing to them. Deprivation seems to have the effect of making you want something more…No chocolate, I MUST! have chocolate. I crave chocolate. I’m obsessed ‘Ugh!’…Actually if I want chocolate, I can have chocolate, but in moderation {Syn counted, from my syn allowance}

Deep down I am holding on to being able to eat exactly what I want, when I want it…but…I make the wrong food choices. I can eat when I am hungry. I can eat what I want to eat, but consciously, no mindless eating. I want to feed my body healthy nutrious food, so I reap the benefits of being a healthy, attractive, happy in my own body, confident I look good, motivated, energetic, wife, mum, nana, me, myself…

I am holding onto this ‘can’t be arsed’ attitude. When in reality, I have got all the capabilities, to succeed. I already cook slimming world type meals. I just crave sugar…but…I can control the amount of sugar I allow in my body. It is easy…

I’m on a diet I WANT! something sweet…Ummmm! Why? Habit? Boredom? Addiction?…Its easy? I associate giving up sugar as deprivation? When in reality I can find healthy ways to satisfy my sweet tooth. My so called sweet tooth. Like smoothies. Like melted chocolate dipped fruit. More filling nutrious fruit, less chocolate, but still chocolate…

I need cocktail sticks, various fruits & melted chocolate. How much melted chocolate to cover a bowl of fruit? Surely not that much. I wonder if I melted a fredo bar…Its like my favourite drink is ginger beer. I love ginger beer. Sugar free, is ‘Ugh!’…It is 61-calories per 100mls. A 330ml can is around 200-calories. Which is roughly 10 syn’s, based on 1 syn per 20-calories…

Part of me is tempted to follow the weight watchers smart points, but that felt restrictive to me. I failed abysmally…Though there is the fitness/activity points, which you can earn, 1 fitness point {Whatever} per 15 minutes of brisk activity…So a 30 minute brisk walk, would earn 2 fitness points…

I like the idea of earning syn’s…As this is my version of the diet & my diet for ever. I am going to have activity syn’s. Though 20-calories per 1 syn. It seems low to burn 20 calories, then count it as one activity syn…Hmmm? Then again. If a ripple is around 180-calories & 9 syn’s. Burning 180-calories would burn enough calories for the ripple. 45 minutes of housework, would earn me 9 syn’s…

I could be extra good & earn all the syn’s I use…Or have 5 syn’s each day, then earn any extra through exercise. Mind you 27 syn’s for a bottle of red wine ‘Ugh!’ 540-calories to burn. I could earn all my syn’s. Or if I feel too tired, use my daily 15 syn’s {No flexible}

Or…Earn my syn’s through exercise & have the extra A & B healthy choice on my extra easy plan. That is what I will do…If I go shopping each day, to get my day’s food. I would earn 10 syn’s…I found it easier to diet when I shopped daily…

Having the extra A choice would be better, so I could have tea & porridge {A healthy B choice}…I found just eating meat & veg boring & just eating potatoes, pasta, rice even more boring. This way of eating is a lifestyle change, not just a diet…

I don’t want to full into the diet mentality trap. By following the slimming world extra easy plan, with a few personal tweaks, I am eating the same as I do already 70%-30%. 30% being the OTT! sweet junk. 70 % I eat meat, poultry, fish, veg, salad, eggs, pasta, rice, potatoes, fruit {Not as much as I should do} The sweet junk can now have a syn value…

Healthy food is nutrious food, healing my body, not boring diet food. I do actually like vegetables, salad, fruit, but I need some added taste, otherwise it can be too bland for me. I have got lots of herbs & spices to add extra taste. Garlic improves the taste a lot…

So My plan of action…Starting Wednesday 10th May. I will…

1] Follow the ‘Extra easy’ slimming world plan…

2] Earn my syn’s through exercise. 20-calories = 1 syn…

3] Have an extra A & B healthy choice, instead of syn’s. So 2x A & B healthy choices…

4] Use intermittent fasting 14:10 as a weight loss tool…

5] Listen to self hypnosis & follow the book ‘I can make you thin’ {My version}

6] Keep myself motivated everyday, through blogging, mirror’s everywhere, reality check photo’s, read the slimming world magazine & watch slimming world video’s on you tube…

7] Get my start weight & measurements, then weigh & measure myself weekly…

8] Shop daily…

9] Eat half veg- quarter protein- quarter carbs, portion control…Aim to fill up on super veg…

10] Eat 3 meals + 2 snacks per day, between 13pm & 23pm…

11] Stay focused on achieving small goals. Set myself lots of small goals…

12] Stay focused on being ‘persistent’ & patient, aiming for the long term, making changes to my lifestyle. Prepare myself to maintain my weight loss, improve my health & my fitness…

Wednesday is a red wine day. It is my friends birthday. So I will need to earn 27 syn’s {Burn 540-calories}…I am counting Walking as 7-calories per minute. Housework as 4-calories per minute. Gardening as 6-calories per minute {weeding digging} 4-calories per minute {sowing, watering, deadheading, planting} Jogging on my mini trampoline 7-calories per minute. Exercises with my resistance bands 6-calories per minute – with out resistance 5-calories per minute…

Nuff said for now. I need to get ready for my friend, more red wine, more catching up…

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Self hypnosis for weight loss – Motivation – Inspiration – Planning – Preparing – Changing your mind, to change lifestyle, weight loss comes as a added bonus…

The planning stage is still in progress. I am just putting on some self hypnosis to listen to as I type. I am not laying down with my eyes closed, going into a relaxed state, but the suggestions are still going into my mind…

I am trying out all different self hypnosis video’s on you tube, to save all the ones I like. On my weight loss journey, I am going to listen to self hypnosis each day. Including Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’…

Right, this hypnosis is going off. His voice is beginning to aggravate…{Hypnosis for weight loss}

Ohh! This one is better ‘The 30 day challenge’

Before I set out on my weight loss journey. I am going to be ready to succeed. I am following a diet, but I am more changing my lifestyle, so I can lose all my excess fat & keep it off. I am aiming to take each day as a new day, but all the successful days will add up…’Persistence!’…There will be no giving up, giving up is not an option…

My life depends on it…Though there will be no strict, restrictive dieting. I will follow the extra easy plan, with 1x each A & B choice & 15 daily syn’s, which I will use as flexible syn’s. I will use intermittent fasting 14:10 as an extra weight loss tool…& aim to be active for 3 hours each day. Which includes walking, housework, gardening, rebounding on my mini trampoline, using my resistance bands…3 hours activity out of 24 hours is not impossible. It is a realistic goal…

I am going to fast from 23pm to 13pm, then eat between 13pm & 23pm. I will eat lunch-Dinner-Supper-syn friendly snacks in between, but mainly sticking to 3 meals, planning my sweet fix. I’ll use smoothies as a sweet fix. Using Muller light yogurt {free} with fruit {free} blended together as a smoothie. I will use cheese as my 1x A choice & bread as my 1x B choice…

One of my preparations I want to do, before I set off on my weight loss journey. Is to buy lots of food containers, so I can batch cook & freeze healthy portions, to eat over the week. That way I can use portion control. Half veg – Quarter protein – Quarter carbs. I like Bolognese & chili, but I’ll only have lean mince in the Bolognese & turkey mince in the chili. I want to use some of the Mediterranean diet principles. Like more fish, some poultry, cheese {A choice} olive oil {syn value}…

As I am using the slimming world diet as a healthy eating plan. I am going to tweak it to suit me, for life. As in eating avocado as a free food…I can have 45g feta cheese. Which I could have on 2x small wholemeal toast, with mackerel & tomatoes…Yummy!

The Mediterranean diet, is one of the healthiest diets in the world…

The self hypnosis is just ending. I was not really listening to it…but I’m sure some suggestions went into my mind…

Nuff said for now. I will continue with my planning in a mo. I want to prepare myself to deal with emotional eating…

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I can make myself thin…

I am going to do lots of planning before I set out on my weight loss journey…I used to be able to go for long walks with my dog, melody…but now I am in pain & out of breath in 10-15 minutes. I used to love walking. Now I am saving my energy for other things, like housework or gardening. I love gardening too, so I don’t mind saving my energy to commune with nature…Bliss! Well apart from the noisy bas— neighbours…

By following this diet properly, I am improving the quality of my life, getting a life, prolonging my life. It is not just vanity, it is saving my life. I need to keep giving myself reality checks. My breathing is bad, I am in pain, I can’t walk far. If I eat a healthy diet; my health has improved just by changing the food I eat slightly. Now I need to follow a diet, which will speed things up…

I am going to use intermittent fasting 14:10 as a weight loss tool. Which means I fast {No food/calories} for 14 hours & I only eat in a 10 hour eating time. As I seem to go into ‘I MUST EAT!’ mode in the evening & I can pretty much go with out food until late afternoon. I am going to eat 13pm – 23pm. Which means lunch-dinner-supper-snacks in between if I feel hungry…

I don’t agree with the ‘YOU MUST EAT BREAKFAST TO LOSE WEIGHT!’…Blah-Blah-Blah! I don’t always want to eat in the morning. I just want a drink. I usually only eat lunch, at lunch time, out of habit, or boredom, probably both…

Another weight loss tool, I will be using…’Self hypnosis’…Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’. I do try my hardest to follow the 4 golden rules. I eat when I am hungry, I eat what I want to eat, I try to eat slowly & chew my food {Though I do watch tele at the same time “Gasp!” Naughty!} I stop when I am full. A no brainer, but there was a time when I would have carried on eating until I was bloated…

Eating more healthy has improved my bloated, distended tummy issues. I started looking like I was 9 months pregnant with triplets. At least it lifted my sagging boobs, lol…

Anyway…Where was I…Ohh! Yeah! I am doing intermittent fasting 14:10 & following the ‘I can make you thin’ golden rules, also listening to self hypnosis. I am not going to force myself to follow a strict regime. I am never going to deprive myself of any food. I will be using my own mind to succeed on my weight loss journey. I will use my imagination, as opposed to my ‘WILL! power!’ It is my will, but noooo! deprivation of any kind…

One of main weight loss issues is so called ’emotional eating’ As in eating to change the way you feel…

Nuff said for now. I will continue in a mo…