Posted in Feng Shui, Indoor Garden, Life as a submissive/spankee, Motivation., Pep Talk

Start telling the universe what you want…

I am interested in feng shui…& after spending time in my son’s vacated bedroom, clearing out the junk…OMFG! That room definitely needs cleansing. It is going to be my new bedroom. So I get to clear, clean, decorate & move in all new stuff…

I’m left wondering…Was I a bad parent, because I left him to it, to do his own thing? That bedroom has definitely got bad chi…Then I’m thinking ‘I should have gone in his bedroom to completely clean up, I should have asked for his washing’…My husband would go & clear his rubbish, dirty dishes, do his washing, wash his bedding. Me…I thought he was old enough to take care of his own bedroom…My daughters take care of their own bedrooms & do their own washing. Aka ‘laundry’…

New beginnings…

A fresh new start…

Attracting strong Chi, or feng shui energy into one’s home or office is very important. A strong, vibrant flow of Chi in your home (or office) will keep nourishing your personal energy, thus allowing you to focus on and achieve whatever goals you have for yourself.

I have set myself goals, but I have not ‘Feng shui-d’ my home. Not entirely. Not thoroughly. There is so much bad feng shui. Like broken lights, a broken dish washer. That is going in the skip. A broken oven. Again that is going in the skip…

I am determined to fix everything, but I have to learn how to nag. My Mum told me I need to learn how to nag. As in ‘I want that light fixed’…but…I don’t like nag’s…Nagging is just an annoying, aggravating, droning noise ‘No one’ listen’s to…One of my friends is a nag, everyone in her family seems to hate her…Nagging is not good. So no I won’t be learning how to nag. I’d rather just do it myself. Not that my mum was a nag. My Dad was the moody ranter, lol…

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I want to use every available space for storage, as my house is very lacking in storage space. Then again I could keep under my bed clear…but…I also have this irrational fear of something being under my bed, about to grab me. I watch to many ghost programmes, lol…

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I want to let go of the negative things in my life & move on, to create a fresh new, improved, relaxing future…With lots plants, writing, steering clear of negative people. I want to write fantasy sub/spankee stories to eventually sell on kindle, I want to grow a variety of houseplants, to eventually start propagating & sell…Time to let go of the negative clutter & create the motivation, inspiration, focus I need to reach my goals…both small, medium & large. Short term, to long term & in between…I am always evolving, just go with flow, but take along a paddle to steer my way…

 

 

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Posted in Indoor Garden, Life as a submissive/spankee, Motivation., Opinion, Pep Talk

Is it possible to reprogram your mind?

Mind over matter?

Three photo’s of my indoor garden…I love my plants. The colours, the contrast, the various shapes, sizes & textures. They are ‘Glorious!’ {Smiles}

I thought I would do some research on the benefits of indoor gardening…

Starting with the tree hugger

  • They give an assist in breathing

My breathing is particully bad…{250 lung capacity} So any natural help is much appreciated…

  • They help deter illness

We have not put the heating on yet this year, but when we do. I will have purer, more humid air. I might need to water more often? I will look that up…

  • They clean the air

“Yaaay!”

  • They boost healing

Well my houseplants certainly make me feel good…So I am more relaxed, calm, a soothing contentedness every time I look at my plants…

  • They help you work better

Maybe I should find myself a cosy hidey corner. Surround myself with more plants, more plants is always best when it comes to plants…& start writing my fantasy spankee stories…’Mmmm!’ bamboo, willow ‘Birch’…lol…{That just confused any vanilla folks}

See…my sub/spankee self is still here. She will never go away, she is a huge part of who I am. I just need to keep working towards a way I can be my sub/spankee self & not be aggravated by the dreaded…Ugh! scene!…I might put a self imposed ban on myself using that word. First I need to get it out of my system…

I hate the scene with a vengeance…

The scene is full of weirdo, freak, chancers, perv’s, creepy perv’s, attention seeking, emotionally insecure, controlling, arrogant, nasty, malicious, vindictive, gossiping, back stabbing, cliquey, obnoxious, rude, ignorant, bullying, insensitive ‘Jerks!’ FROM HELL!!!

Right! I got that out of my system. Now ‘Let it go!’…Move on…Create my own sub/spankee life, through writing ‘fantasy’ stories & forget the real life screwed up ‘scene’…

The END!

From now on. If I mention that word. Or blog about that which can no longer be named…I will write a short fantasy story…Not that I want my mind to associate my writing fantasy, with the negative thoughts I have about the whatsitsface…No, mind…I am just training myself to put my sub/spankee thoughts to good use…

Wait! One more time ‘Scene!’

The ban starts now…………………………………………………………………………………

Posted in Indoor Garden, Life as a submissive/spankee, Opinion, Pep Talk, Self hypnosis

An INFJ sub is a paradox…

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I feel so much more calm & content, since making the decision to ditch the scene. A huge sigh of relief, like a HUGE! bitchy burden has been lifted off my shoulders…

Ryan is popping back this afternoon from number 51, to visit. He moved out yesterday morning {Smiles} He is probably picking up more of his stuff, but his making it around 2.30pm, so he’ll see his Dad as well, so Dad will probably get to see him more then when he was dossing here. I mean living here, lol…

Anyway…As I was going to use as a blog prompt…”What you allow, is what will continue”…It may seem a tad dramatic to some. Well many. Because the scene clique mentality is rife & cliques think enmass!…I am no longer allowing myself to feel that niggling aggravation, because I feel disappointed & disheartened. Also used & abused…

Its like someone who attended a few of my parties. He is a really nice bloke. A quite distinguished gentleman, we got on quite well…Though there was not exactly any conversation. He was just caning me…HARD! One strength fits all…HARD! Too HARD! He is one of the few I have had to stop. I don’t use a silly safe word, I just say, quite firmly ‘That hurts too much!’ & if it carries on ‘I have had enough!’…

Anyway. He sent me a pm. I never told him who I was…but he wanted to chat. In the end I decided not to chat, because I knew I would not play with him. I could take a lot of pain, I was a bit of a pain slut…but I love it for the after effects; it is not a competition, in the end it got to over crowded. I don’t care that so & so took 50 & never moved, in fact she bratted in a whiny voice ‘Have you started yet’…{Yawns!}

Oops! I brought back the disappointing, disparaging, often disheartening, so called fecking scene into my mind…See ‘Mind fuck!’…I believe in the power of our own mind & my mind is telling me. No SHOUTING! at me. This is not right. This feels all wrong…

Personally…I don’t feel the BDSM/spanking scene is emotionally, mentally healthy. Not for a person who is being themselves & for a INFJ…who can spot a fake person at whatever paces. The scene is a CONSTANT! mind fuck!…

Soooo! I need to remove myself from the situation which can potentially cause me to be fucked ‘Mentally’…Not even psychically. Jeeze!

As my husband describes me. I am a straight thinking person. The scene is…well…full of kinks…

…& breath…relax

In with calm…Out with stress…

I am going to stop now; go & make coffee, then look at my gorgeous plants. My plants sooth my soul. All the BDSM/spanking scene does is AGGRAVATE! & GRIND! on my every frazzled from the clique peeps ‘nerves!’…

Actually…I’m making it sound way worse then it really is. In reality, I am laughing as I blog this…Not crazy, lost it, manic, like…noooo…more 80% calm me 20% can see all the fecking scene flaws…

Deep breaths are good. Calming, soothing meditating is a must. My indoor garden. Who can resist. Grating clique peeps…Pffft!!!

Coffee time…

Here is some more photo’s of my indoor garden…

 

Posted in Indoor Garden, Motivation.

Another one of my babies fly’s the nest…

Soooo! Ryan moved out this morning…at 3am…Ummm! Him & his mates carried his mattress down the road to number 51. They probably looked quite suspicious, lol…I do feel for their neighbours. I have heard my son’s music…’Eeeek!’…

I’m very proud of my independent son. Though he might be back with washing. I’ll probably see more of him, it will be more quality time, as he’ll be visiting. That empty nest syndrome…Eh?

I love the fact that my kids are able to move out. Gaining a new bedroom, garden room & Jade moving down stairs into a bigger room, is a added bonus. I’m so excited to finally get a more relaxing bedroom. Time to start planning. As the big clear out & major ‘dream home’ overhaul starts in February 2018…

More plants…Lots of crystals…I am going to feng shui our home & garden…Something so simple as finally getting a ‘private’ {No computer, no hanging out, no dogs} bedroom…I’ve worked out how many plants I can fit in my new bedroom…

It is really tall. So lots of lovely sunshine from the East in the morning & some sunshine from the South in the afternoon. I can fit 8 pots on the window sill & about 16 plants in front of the window. Also with LED lighting I can spread even more plants around the room…

I need to research the plants which give off oxygen at night…but…all that oxygen & air purification during the day, I doubt we’ll be effected by the carbon dioxide given off at night, by many plants. After all there is lots of clean air from the day time…

Snake plants give off oxygen at night. So I’ll definitely be putting snake plants in my bedroom {Aka mother inlaws tongue}

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I have got a few spider plants. I have also got ivy…& aloe vera…Can you grow lavender indoors? I imagine it needs lots of light…

Posted in Indoor Garden

My indoor garden is spreading…

Darn! I need to remember that all the Christmas stuff comes out around my birthday, even though my birthday is at the beginning of October. Lots of lovely Christmas decorations, not so many plant/artificial plants…Though Alton garden centre does have a good selection of house plants. Just the lovely artificial plants I saw in the summer…replaced by Christmas…

There was a few artificial plants. A huge blossom tree…Just under £800…A tad tooooooo! expensive…

My indoor garden is spreading out. I need to re-arrange my plants…

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Posted in Indoor Garden, Life as a submissive/spankee, Motivation., Weight loss journey

Where am I at?…

I have not blogged here in ages, but I thought it was time to start using this blog again…Where am I at, on my weight loss journey? Well I am learning lots & lots. The main one being ‘Diets don’t work’…Adding healthy foods, drinking more water, especially eating more vegetables & fruit…I have bought a soup maker, which is great. I get to eat lots of healthy, nutritious, tasty soup. It has also got a blender programme, so I get to drink healthy, nutritious, fruit smoothies too…

Where am I at, with my indoor garden? It is looking great. I love my indoor garden. Though it is going slow filling the whole house…

Where am I at, with my sub life? Well that is a on going source of confusion. Am I too old? Am I too fat? Am I past it? Do I even want to put my self through the drama & mayhem? The last one I’m sure about. No…Too much stress ‘In with calm, out with stress’…Eat more veg, spend time communing with my houseplants…

Then I go & start blogging with a friend. A friend I met in the so called scene. His reputation precedes him as well. In fact I think he could win the ‘Scenes most hated’ award. Would I come in second? Nah! I don’t think so…

I think I got myself into a situation. Now I am going from feelings of ‘Yeah! I can do this’ to absolute ‘DREAD!’…

I am going to stop there & go make some coffee…{Which has health benefits btw}

Ohh! Yes!…Before I go…I changed my blog name to ‘Sophisticated derriere’…Why? Because I like that name…

Nuff said for now…

Posted in Indoor Garden

Loving My Indoor Garden…

I’m loving my indoor garden. It is coming along really well…I would advise any plant lover to create an indoor garden. Or at least get more plants. LED bulbs help give more light, so plants can go anywhere…

Here are a few of my latest plants…

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I have still got some space to fill in my living room ‘The first indoor garden room’ Then I am starting on the second garden room, which is in my kitchen. That is the brightest room in the house, with duel aspect, East & South, including two sky lights facing South & catching the sun in the morning & a little in the evening…

First I need to plan, write lists, find inspiration…Prepare the family to make room for all the plants I plan on keeping on the work tops…

I brought one of my roses indoors…Roses grow well indoors, if they have enough light & are kept moist {Not saturated} I am going to bring all my roses in doors, as well as my other dahlias & fuchsias…

Posted in Indoor Garden

When You Get Up Close & Personal With A Bunch Of Plants Living In Your Living Room…

My indoor garden is going very well. I love it. Its a pity I never thought to do this a lot sooner. I get to enjoy the beauty of my plants so much more. Watering is 100 times easier. Whilst everything is drying up outside in the burning sun. My indoor plants stay moist…

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I brought the gladioli indoors. I love the flowers, but out side I don’t see them near as much as I do indoors. The colour, the shape, the purple stamen. They are gorgeous. I want to buy a lot more gladioli bulbs for next year. The foliage is lovely as well, it looks quite tropical…

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I’m pleased with the way my Dahlia is flowering indoors. It did have one bud when I brought it indoors & it did seem to take ages to open, but now its open ‘Wooo!’ So beautiful. There is the start of tiny buds developing. I’m hoping they grow & bloom…

I have still got lots of space to fill in my first garden room. I want to have the illusion of walking into a beautiful Victorian orangery…Or a greenhouse at kew gardens…I want to be surrounded by plants…

The great thing about creating a indoor garden, is it is there all year & I can buy 1 tinsy plant to admire, where as in a garden it disappears into the rest of the garden, unless you allow it space to grow & spread of course. Then there’s the weeding, the watering, going back indoors because it’s raining, burning hot sun, all the noisy neighbours are out in force…

I bought 4 new plants today. 2 of them were tiny. They would disappear in the garden. Actually they would die…but they have got such beautiful foliage, both shape, texture & colour. Here I am wandering around, picking up baby pot plants, fondling leaves, inspecting the flowers in great detail, up close & personal…I know, what am I on, lol…

Flower power!…Sorry…I know…I will stop now & go fondle my Jade plant…

Posted in Indoor Garden, Motivation.

Indoor Ponds – Hydroponics – Terrariums…

I am having so much fun creating my indoor garden, even though we’re still in the planning, decorating stages. Yesterday I bought the containers to be two of my new indoor ponds. I have got 12 fish, which gives them lots of space, but I want to do hydroponics, growing plants in the ponds, so technically I want a few fish in each pond, as the plants will take up space…

I much prefer keeping fish in a large container rather then a glass fish tank. as long as they have a filter {The plants} & sunlight {LED light} they are fine. I will have a oxygen pump going each day, the plants filter the water, the LED light acts as sun/day/grow light…

My bamboo is coming indoors, between the two indoor ponds. Bamboo likes some humidity, the pond water will add humidity around the bamboo. Its strange, every year I used to pull out the cabinet to spray mildew/mould remover. Since my indoor pond has been there ‘No mildew/black mould’…I was concerned I would cause more damp & make it worse, but no, it is completely clear…

I wonder if I can grow water lilies indoors ? If I can that would be great…I assume they need lots of sunlight…Or do they?…I need to research indoor water lilies…

Apparently not…but I don’t see why not. As long as they have enough light. Unfortunately they are quite expensive to experiment with & fail…I could get an artificial water lily…

I love this idea, but not keeping one lone fish in a small glass container. I like the idea of growing water plants as houseplants in glass containers. Then again…the non stop water changing & cleaning. I have got a large glass bowl/fish tank I rescued from going to the tip. I am not going to put fish in it. I am going to plant it as a terrarium…

Though I do want the leafy, jungle effect…

Right, rest over, more work…

Posted in Indoor Garden

Growing Clematis & Passion Flower Indoors As Houseplants…

I don’t think John quite gets my vision of my indoor garden, he is momentarily blissfully unaware of what I want to create. I get the feeling he is expecting a few house plants. I am planning to fit 50 plants in my living room…

I literally want a indoor garden, not just a few plants dotted here & there. For a start, on the wall next to where I’m sitting, I can fit 6 wall planters. Over the patio door 6 hanging pots. When I walk into my lounge, the first thought which I want to hit me is ‘Plants!’ then ‘light’…then ‘Its so beautiful & peaceful, I love my indoor garden’…

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAI want to bring my garden plants indoors. One in particular. My clematis armandii. It does grow fast. It flowers on the last years growth. I am going to give it a tall pot & metal obelisk. Then place it in the sunniest part of my house. Which is the kitchen…

Can I grow passion flower indoors?

The Passion Flower: A Perfect Tropical Vine For Growing Indoors

Oh! Wow! I love passion flowers. The best thing about growing my plants indoors as house plants. I get to see them more. With out the burning sun, weeds, noisy neighbours. I can wander around my house admiring my lovely plants…